Just woke up from a dream of a man (me) tearfully trying to share his perspective to his siblings and parents (who weren’t really listening) about the Book of Abraham: How the facsimiles are mistranslated per LDS and non-LDS Egyptologists. How the Egyptian figures correlating with the text of the BofA are mistranslated per LDS and non-LDS Egyptologists as shown in the Kirtland Egyptian Papers. How Joseph referenced numerous times in journals, etc. how he thought these were actual translations. How the distances of the lacunae at the edges of the papyrus roll prove there can’t possibly be enough of the Egyptian scroll missing to account for Joseph’s translation from another portion.
The man in my dream tried sharing how he had read so many of Hugh Nibley’s works, John Gee and others for ten years to try to make sense of the issue. To see where ancient Egyptians had perhaps had their own temple ceremony, etc. The dream didn’t even get into masonic origins, etc…
It was odd, as dreams can be. I was simultaneously trying to share my perspective and observing this man trying to share his perspective.
And you know what I felt just prior to waking that persisted as I woke?
A deep and tremendous overwhelming sense of compassion, empathy and love. I just wanted to take that man and embrace him in my arms and cry with him for his sense of integrity and humility in being willing to change course when the evidence did not support his prior views. I wanted to embrace him and accept him fully for the shunning he was experiencing, viewed as being deceived. I wanted to validate him and let him know he was seen and understood.
This faith transition stuff is some tough shit. Many of us are not going to get any real compassion, empathy or understanding from those we want it most from. Hopefully we can have it for ourselves.
Hat’s off to all of you who are on a similar path. You are seen. Your reasons are understood. And I think you’re awesome!
Jason Harris is a Neurologist/Neuro-Ophthalmologist, Dad and Husband who shares his experiences leaving the Mormon Church and reconstructing a new World-View. He believes all religions and scripture are man-made and believes there is Divinity in all of them.